The Crow: April 2020

Thursday, April 23, 2020

Reaching out.

I've been staying with my daughter for the last ten months and have felt disconnected from the rest of the world, especially after the quarantine began. In fact, depression is my constant companion, leading to more flare-ups of PTSD than I've had since it first blindsided me in 2013. I haven't reached out to my blogging friends in so long, it seems I don't even know how anymore.

Yesterday, friend Francesca surprised and amazed me by sending a mask she made for me. I was at work, the one day that I may go in to the office, since the historical society is closed down for the duration of the COVID-19 siege. Before going in, I dropped by my house to see if I had any mail. Didn't look through it until I got to the office. That I had any personal mail at all was a nice surprise, but that it was from a blogging friend was even better.

Then I opened the package and burst into tears. Fresca's gift spoke volumes of her friendship and concern for friends during this terrible time.

While I can't "reach out and touch..." her hand, I can touch what her hands made...and what her heart felt in the making.

Thank you, dear friend.

Wednesday, April 8, 2020

Here we go again!

Hands up! I surrender!

Aww, Bernie...again? What the hell?!?

This is the political version of the boy who cried wolf, only the candidate cried, "I'll save us! Vote for me! Believe in me. My plans will work for everyone. No one will be marginalized or left behind!"

I doubt I'll be around to vote for a candidate I can believe again. I feel like it's the Hillary choice (no choice) farce again.

Meaningful Quotes

"We are displaced by time."

-Marian Marshall Suplee Griest, late (first) mother-in-law, spoken to me in January 1994, in a dream after her death.

"We've got to live, no matter how many skies have fallen." - D. H. Lawrence (via Whiskey River, 8-22-2014)

"There is something scary about letting ourselves
go. It means that we will screw up, that we will relinquish the possibility of perfection. It means that we will say things we didn't mean to say and express feelings we can't explain. It means that we will be onstage and not have complete control, that we won't know what we're going to play until we begin,
until the bow is drawn across the strings.

While this spontaneous method might be frightening, it's also an extremely valuable source of creativity. The lesson about letting go is that we contain our own creativity. We are so worried about playing the wrong note or saying the wrong thing that we end up with nothing at all." - Jonah Lehrer (via Whiskey River, 10/22/2014)